Strangers | celainn's Blog

You know that fine, fine feeling you get when you meet someone who you think is in total synch with you and that you two are two of a kind?  And you know how you then start that sort of "flirty, intellectual sparring" with them, just to see if you really are on the same wavelength and if they'll get it and if they'll be into it?  And then you know that feeling you get when they DO get it and they start teasing back as if you've lived your life together and you know each other's moods and tastes and inner thoughts, and you get that warm feeling rising from your chest - that feeling of being KNOWN and understood and accepted? 

And you know how you then coast along with them - trading witty asides back and forth - getting comfortable and starting to feel free to open up, because the person seems to know you so well?

And you know how you then tell them the secrets of your soul, and they respond in kind and you realize you have even more in common than you had originally thought?

And you know how you then hold this person close to your heart and show interest in what they find interesting and encourage them and lift them up so high until you realize that you are most likely falling in love with them (if you haven't already)?

And you know how things go on along those lines very nicely until something (gods know what) happens, they or you say a wrong thing and then a chink is exposed in their armor of perfection but thats OK because you've always known perfection is over-rated and gods know you aren't perfect either?

And you know how they then sense that you have realized the little man behind the great and powerful Oz and it doesn't MATTER to them that you are ok with them being human - they are NOT, and they are NOT ok with you knowing they are human?

And you know how the claws come out then?  You know how they rip and tear long gashes in you to get you to leave (using every secret you have ever told them) until the pain becomes to much to bear and you then give them their wish and go?

You do?  You know about all of that?

Oh good.

Can you tell me how to make it stop hurting?